Another Autumn

​It’s that season again - season of change, fall colors, and warm sweaters. My favorite time of the year. Currently, I’m sitting at a nurses station in Townshend Vermont, fantasizing about sleeping instead of staying awake until 7 am. Night shift is always so draining. I can’t remember a time where working all night was easy for me. In fact, it used to be preferable. I would work an occasional mid-shift or day-shift and absolutely despise it. Isn’t it interesting how time and experiences change a person and their preference? After 3.5 years of variable shifts that excluded nights, I’m officially a changed woman. However, once the opportunity arose that would plop me back on the East coast, I couldn’t turn it down. Vermont in the fall time? Sign me up!

​I’ve been in the area for about 3 weeks now, and I can tell time is flying by. Typically my contracts do move quickly, but I’ve been able to really settle into this role way too smoothly. That being said, I know that the end of my three months will come soon, leaving me picking up my suitcase once more. Pondering my choice of job has me asking the daunting question: what am I really searching for? I see my friends settling into their own roles - new jobs, new families, or new relationships. People my age are finding their future husbands, having babies, or buying houses and settling in for the ride. Am I that far behind in my life? Or am I simply waiting patiently to make my own happiness? 

​While these questions surface every now and then, I know deep down in my heart that God has a plan for me. Hopefully, I can enjoy what He has laid out. It really can be difficult to not compare your life with that of others. Even though I recognize that I have different experiences and goals, I still fight the anxiety of not being enough. Not being where I’m supposed to be at my age. Then I remember a simple fact that everyone should remember: I am uniquely me. I cannot and will not base my life decisions on other people’s milestones or success. My life needs to be based on the goals and plans I find valuable and, for lack of a better word, enough. Enough to satiate my hunger for learning; for growing; for living. It’s with this in mind that I wake up every day with new perspective and a will to keep striving for what I want. What keeps you going? 

​With that question in mind, stay in touch, stay in mind, and stay on your path.